Lifestyle: Out Of Place

I feel out of place.

First, hi, and long time no blog post on here since the move.
I wanted to come over to this blog, because on my other blog (link), I'm doing a Halloween challenge.

Right now, I chose to relax and figure out, 1) whether to do this post, 2) talk about things I'm feeling right now (yeah...scary), and 3) whether to post this on my other blog (link). So, a lot of thoughts. But here I am.

I wanted to talk about feeling out of place. I'm going to say with the internet.
If you have, or may have not noticed, for around 2 years I've been off the internet - don't worry, it was fine.

It wasn't our fault. The companies link got corrupted, so we were unfortunate (until after years we saw the email... *blank, "are you serious" expression*).

I know it's not a problem, but I have so many views on things of today, that it may make sense or not.

I feel out of place, because now I view of popular things like, blogging, YouTube, lush thingies and so much more. And I'm gradually thinking, I've missed this?!

Some things I think are important, and I'm sorry, some things I get bored of seeing, but that's fine.

In this day and age, we need an escape. To feel like things can be OK, and it can. I won't go on a rant about it, but this is a different blog. 

[I will however get round to doing my diary entries again, so I need to view which diary I'm on - lolls. Yeah, there was a lot mostly during my teenage-hood. That's another story].

Anyway, I'm not focusing on what I'm on about, and that's fine. That is what this blog is for, mentioning what is on my mind, the original thought for this blog.

First I'm sorry for not posting here. I wanted a place to put everything together, because I wasn't happy.
I couldn't keep up with what I wanted to showcase, and now, it's a lot, not going to lie.

Off topic: I design things, and only yesterday I felt able to design, what I would like to design yesterday. If that makes sense.
They came out great, greater than I imagined.
I'm slightly uncomfortable at the moment, I said this on my other blog (post link). That's OK, I knew some day out the month it would happen.

End Note: through everything, I want to be myself. I'm overshadowing myself, with others who are doing what I would like to do. But I love their potential, and how much or how far they've come.

Other than designing, I love making videos. I've always have since experiencing it in high school. It's so much fun, and so beyond creativity. I've always liked behind the scenes of media things. If I'm making sense.

I have a lot to say, but I know I should not be afraid to do it my own way.
To hear this, and to stand by peoples judgements, make me less happy, and less willing to be me.
I need ME again. That's another story too.

Anyway, if you've read this, sorry and I feel humble to open up again.

Take care,
xImmortalMindsx
Living, Writing + Posting