Within Primary to secondary, I had to deal or face bullying. That was an issue, but worse of, is the teachers.
Some I can say did not care or just thought of their own performance, than what they taught. Others, only a few, did really just do what they did in a true teachers job description...teach.
Children in most, I would say, HAVE to enjoy the subject before they can really get into the subject. Some may like it straight up (I did for some lessons) and some, clearly have no interest. It is by teachers, and school in total, to engage the child into studying than just to say 'do this'. It does not go for all pupils/students. Some willing to learn and some, no so sure, in my opinion, why are they at school...?
So, for my review:
Primary still: was fun at times. Reaching up to higher years, in was on and then off. I loved the trips, didn't like a teacher. They made me cry, just because I forgot to read a book. I liked how we chose books, but due to the days and trying to find interest in a book, didn't settle with my mood. Was awful. So, Primary is an if and but, it feels like it should be a brief introduction to what you enjoy and changing your sight on the world or such. Or popular thought, making friends.
For secondary school: is shaping your OWN future. All we had, I saw, was many teachers shouting. Some trying to make a difference, then some 'biopolar' moment of a teacher or teachers not helping at all and just shouting and not making any impact. Others gave dirty looks and others just did not do anything. In the lesson, and then they just left which ever did not to do their work. What was that? I always thought.
You're meant to teach everyone , not just the one's willing to learn. Yet, can't finish, but every student needs to be on the same level, even if they do find iy hard to learn.
I did not know this, until later in my upper year group, but my learning and focus was not adding up. I found it frustrating, but lucky there was supportive teachers.
By less. Some teachers, looked like they were there to shout. Some I was just thinking , 'the troublemaker are not listening to you, just teach and send them out them out the room and chat with them.
We didn't get pass to some things that they wanted to teach because they just shouted too much.
Some was deafening and some just wanted to shout.
I think I got shouted at once, I was asking something. Then out of blue, right in front of me, the teacher shouted. I was shocked, but I had that before so I guessed I laughed when outside of class. Wow, no serious.
I know I try to do well, by then, learning just got difficult for me, I'll say what I found out in uni time, but wow for that moment. Clueless why, but they were shouting at students, class mates before, so fighting fire there.
University (1 and a half years): I did btec, it was so nice. For the first year, I needed to do btec to get into ba (hond) course, I guess, that was a change for UCAS credits at the time, or defferently for the course but, it was good. Good for good and most tutors were fun. One tutor, did not care for the soul.
They made you feel, if you do or don't have the equipment, they are going to teach anyway. No help, no nothing. Just do your own thing and follow...um, no. Not in my view if you want interest for what your teaching.
I can say I did prepare myself, but for that student, nah. We needed help to know where to get some of the equipment, not just to set out on nothing.
The other year, I got a pass somehow - oh, I should say there was a fashion show but it goes with this also, so hold on - I started the ba (hons), was good at first. We went into our classes. Was OK. Teaching was experimental but, the tutor could really see that some students were suffering.
By then, I found out I was dyslexic, I more remembering images, than text. I'm fine with that because I mostly like drawing, so a gift happen. So, help from tutor, even more help from service.
However, 1) bullying again. From secondary, I didn't say much, I just understood their motive more and my motive to not react at some points, advice helped also. So, bullying - I wasn't deaf, that's all I can say, verbal bullying - and one thing that stands out and hurts to this day, is 2) a tutors teaching method.
Here we go with the 'asking method' one again. If I did report it, who knows, but I don't like brags or first place - this, fact good to know I guess, meh.
But the tutor, I asked for their service, my main tutor was there to help. Bless, but one wasn't and it was their course, subject to teach. Like assignment to teach. 'No', they said, when she returned back. Another tutor was there also, they looked at each other, and I knew they did not like that response from that tutor, so bless for anyone if they still teach.
So, the other tutor tried to help me, it was my choice.
They even gave a choice whether to stay or leave for the next session.
By that time, I had way more bigger things to deal with and I was thankful enough.
One other thing, I was there on my off day. I wanted to go in, I wanted their help, so that hurt as well. Thanks very much uni, but no to that one attitude that is still changing my future.
So, by that, I left.
Before, I got the choice whether to go or not, was a big decision, I was confused, but I admire people a lot, A LOT.
So, difficulties:
1) facing three educational times of bullying
2) teachers and tutors need a focus and more fun and understanding - might as well say because I see both sides of them and students/pupils
3) grieving, if you may have seen in a post, I lost my dad, my dad died in 2010, so 4 years now, wow. So, at the time I was at uni, btec I did not make it to the summer fashion show.
I called in and they were helpful to say they would show my gown and they would send my result. So, was nice of them.
So, I do not regret, onwards to ba (hons) that I was lost and tried to find help from their services for myself, but all too complicated, and that tutor helped - bad one - to major goods ones, tutor help. This allowed myself willing to learn more and took an insight to how I felt to allowing learning to be more accessible. They tried, I tried it, loved it and disliked it. It goes with everything.
From thought, I do hope there are teachers and tutors willing to teach for the same to teaching others.
And for any youngsters, try is all you can and have to do.
Younglings need to have fun, but a better understanding to stand on their two feet.
For all willing to learn, learn everything. Specialise in something.
Face your dreams as such, when people don't believe, there's always one willing to believe. So, go forth and do what you think is best for yourself. There is always good times and bad times, it happens. No worries.
Learn to understand.
Learn to make a difference.
Learn to be yourself, when others won't.
Done for now,
NB2
- part of Spec-tacular + Co Projects
"Uni choices are hard. A step is more willing to be taken. Make the correct choices. Overview your responses" - NeeksNeeks, 1996 - 2005
